August 25, 2008


It was 2:30 in the morning, on a Friday night, and me all by myself in dad's office at home- bored and unable to sleep!!

The TV was switched off, so I grabbed the remote control and switched it on; having absolutely no idea as what to watch at that time!! The first channel that came to my mind was 'Rotana Zaman", as I have always been a fan of old Egyptian movies, especially those starring Fatin Hamama, Omer Sherif, Rushdi Abatha or Ahmed Mazhar! God how much I love them all, and do not tell me they did not possess the most irresistible charisma of all at that time;) Well, I do believe they did, and to my utmost bafflement they still manage to sweep me off my feet every time I watch a movie for them!!

However- to my dismay- there was nothing appealing enough to keep me entertained in that particular channel, so I flipped through a number of other channels and I finally reached the "Showtime series". At that time, one of the 'Home Cinemas' was showing 'Atonement'. I couldn't help but get excited at reading the title in the middle of my random search, and I thought to myself: Well, this is it!! This is a movie to be watched wholeheartedly!! Of course it wouldn't have been my first time to see it, for I watched it at the cinema the first week it was released! BUT, it was already the end of the movie, with the list of cast moving before my eyes ever so slowly, when I pressed the number of the channel on the remote control; anticipating an emotionally grabbing experience all over again!!

Nevertheless, I did not change the channel, nor did I switch the TV off in desperation!! It was the music that stopped me dead in my track, seducing my sense of hearing; forcing me to simply give in to its charm and just drift away, not caring to know where or in what land I would end up! Indeed I did travel with both my mind and heart, to a place beyond this cozy little office, and far beyond this dreary land; where I saw myself running barefoot outside that cottage on the beach, traveling down the exact path that 'Cecelia' in the movie followed. I was free.. I was hopeful.. and alive!

The same thing had happened to me at the cinema back then, leaving me glued to my chair; mesmerized by that intense beauty of the magical soundtrack, composed by the brilliant Dario Marianelli. I vividly recall how I felt at that moment; gripped by an indecipherable yet an amazing sensation! It stayed with me even till after I left the cinema headquarters and went home. I was miraculously at peace with myself and the whole world!! I loved the movie, I can assure you of that, but the music was a different story altogether. I have something for acoustics, that I admit.

On that night in my father's office, it had happened again; that music captured me one more time, seeped into my very soul; hypnotized my senses; taking me on a journey I did not want to ever let go of! I remember the way I rested my head on the back of the sofa I was sitting on, the way I closed my eyes and surrendered, totally and willingly, to the melody and that blissful sound!

Now that I am here, writing this post and listening to the full atonement CD, I find myself wondering about those great composers of the greatest ever classics like Mozart, Beethoven, Handel, Tchaikovesky, Vivaldi, Chopin, Bach and many others; and I cannot but feel dumbfounded by their genius and that one of a kind splendour of their musical pieces. Nothing can ever compete with the glory they have reaped through their dazzling music. Yet every now and then someone like 'Dario' comes by, and manages to stun us by music such as that of atonement.

You may ask me, what is so special about atonement's soundtrack?

Well, the answer is as simple as that: it is that deep sense of melancholy coming to life with every stroke on the violin and every caress on the piano keys! It is that vigor it possesses, which makes it sound as though it had a life of its own! It is definitely the feeling of inner peace it masterfully implants deep within, luring me and falling on my ears like a chant of faith and pure content every time I listen to it.!

In short, it is that incomprehensible feeling of the act of atonement materializing right before us, through listening and dedicating the most delicate of senses to appreciate the beauty of music; the magic of translating melodies into never ending sensations!!


Bluetiful Nostalgia said...

Yes babes, you made my day! Masha'Allah dear, your words captured my heart so intensly and made me soar with vivid imagination of the sound of celestial notes of Bach, Mozart, Albeniz and Rachmaninoff (some of my favorite composers).
Zainab, I ,hereby, officially declare you "The Writing Maestro"!!


Solidad said...

The writing Maestro!! I do not really know what to say dear, I am honored to have you say this about my writing!! It means a lot to me, though there must be others that can be called maestros other than me- still I am very happy beyond imagination sweetie- thank u thank u!

And I was hoping that this post will draw a smile on your lips and fill you with such joy, it did!! Thank God:)

Thank you for your exceptional presence dear.

Lieutenant Columbo said...

I'm really not smart with words but I do love music and classic music is my league. Well, what you said really made me curious about atonement's soundtrack, I guess I'm gonna give it a try ;)

Bluetiful Nostalgia said...

Zainab, what I said was a "FACT"! really :)

Try to listen to "Elsewhere" for Sarah McLachlan! I know you'll love it... You too, columbo :D

Solidad said...

Thank you dear brother, you do not have to be smart with words for me to be happy, just seeing your comment here does that!

Love U brother

Solidad said...

Dear Hadeel

Again let me thank u for always boosting my spirits, you made my day with your lovely comments!

And I will definitely listen to the song, I trust your taste:))

rawan said...

Oh my god,
I am totally speechless.
I can only support Hadeel's declaration.
You are amazingly wonderful with all kinds of senses and feelings.

A beautiful soul appreciates beauty.


Solidad said...

Hi Rawany,

Thank u love..
Now I am truly overwhelmed, you have drowned me, all of u, in a sea of generosity!! LOL

What more do I want when you are all happy with what I write? My feeling now is beyond words, and it will remain so because of your constant support and this intense admiration you hold towards my style of writing.

Love U

Khulood said...

I think both the movie and the soundtrack get their beauty from the novel. The story is so captivating that you cannot even fidget in your seat while you're reading or watching it, all the same. Atonement has been added to my favorite classics a while back, which makes this post another favorite as well :)

Solidad said...

Hey Khulood,

Thank you for passing by and I am really flattered that this post has been added to your list of favorites;))

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